THE BLOGGGG:
i came across this word called "blog" quite often in college.Ofcourse the guys who are much fluent in english,cool lookin girls in my college,flirts,techies,nerds....they all do talk about this.But i had no clue about it.May be am very poor in these literary things.And on this specific day we happened to be lucky enough to get a free hour.I was sitting with a bunch of guys.Some call them PETERS as they always preferred english.I got a big tongue and commented to be the biggest chatterbox of all time.But on this day,the topic of discussion [which was usually about girls,movies,cricket,football ,weird n sensational news,strange happenings in college,dressing sense of girls,backtalking n all those shit on which i can take a seminar] is BLOGS..god damn....myself claimed to be a very talkative person got no idea what those guys were talking about.They were discussing about all those cool blogs they have come across.I tried my best to change the topic[which includes taking out my snack box,pointing a hot gal in my college,questioning about the release of DASA....]...but they kept coming back to the same topic:(:(.Ah..finally i said them i am leaving to canteen and left.It was very embrassing for me.2 hrs travel to my home.all i was thinking is to get into this BLOG culture.All i can figure out is that blog s some sort of webpage where people publish something[which i need to find out].There must be some kind of amusement in that.Atlast after reaching home,i washed my face and occupied my system as usual.Sitting lazily in my chair with my legs stretched i asked my mom to get me the dictionary as i had no clue where it was.She shouted "dont behave as if you are an officer.Go take it by yourself".It didnt bring any sort of feelings iin me coz am very much used to these kind of scoldings[infact am enjoying them these days].Lucky was I, found the "OXFORD ADVANCED LEARNERS DICTIONARY" quicker than i expected.It din look dusty.May be my sister is using it often.I searched for the word BLOG.
Oh my god..I remember buying this dictionary in my school for 560rs..and i cudnt find the only word am looking for.I checked againg.it ran-blockhead, blockvote, bloke!!!...what the fuck...BLOG is missing.
oops..wasted my time.Not bad,by this time windows xp got loaded in my pc.i connected to the internet.searched for the word BLOG in wikipedia.org .the result was weird.
"A blog (a portmanteau of web log) is a website where entries are commonly displayed in reverse chronological order. "Blog" can also be used as a verb, meaning to maintain or add content to a blog.
Many blogs provide commentary or news on a particular subject; others function as more personal online diaries. A typical blog combines text, images, and links to other blogs, web pages, and other media related to its topic. The ability for readers to leave comments in an interactive format is an important part of many blogs"
It looked like a two mark answer which i used to mug up[memorise] in school without understanding the concept.All i found is that its some kind of webpage.Finally i decided to ignore my self esteem and called up my friend.I chose him because he wont tease me that badly and he doesnt write blogs[not a PETER].I asked him what this blog thing is all about.He said "feelings machi....feelings" which actually sounded like "peelings".He added "anything u want to blabber, any feelings , any ideas..u can publish them on the internet for free in the name of BLOGS".I went through some of the so called cool blogs.People have expressed their feelings, their day to day happenings, those poetry stuff[which i din understand even a bit].What was amazing is that there were so many comments posted for each blog.I found there are soooo many jobless people in this world than i ever thought.Hmmm,luckily i found the profile of a cute girl in my college[though her blog wasnt that cute:(]..Her blogs were pure non-sense...included her shopping at t-nagar[she bought a pink tops it seems...bull shit], her first experience at taj hotel....her trip to kerala...was shocked at so many comments posted in these crap topics.I felt those were from the flirty guys who run behind her like a dog extending its tongue for a bone..i chuckled for a moment..then i felt onething strongly "THERE IS NOTHING WRONG IF I WRITE A BLOG"
I tried to write some of the happiest moments in my life.I typed a full page,shared it with my friend in gtalk.he said "not bad".I understood what i wrote was bullshit.May be they are the happiest for me,not for him:(.And ofcourse am very poor in english.Then i thought of expressing the sad part of my life[choosing engineering], but i cudnt write more than para...attempted to bring out the insults i faced in my life..But i din want it to be known by others..tried some techie stuff,puzzles,comedy,tongue twisters,tried to copy from other blogs....nothing worked out.I just hate to know when i cant do something that my friends can do.I asked for help to my friend kevin[who s a regular blogger] for some topics to blog....again...nothing worked out.
Finally i convinced myself that i should waste time on what i could never do-BLOGGING...
We always say that we wont wish for something but we cant stop dreaming and then getting hurt.Sometimes it feel so hurt when you think that your small dreams didnt come true.Why we get these types of moments in our lives?Some dreams and wishes will be always in our heart which never came true under any circumstances.
So why dont we forget it ? Ah..we can NEVER throw those dreams out of hearts.
So here i am trying to do something which i know i cant do but i always want to do...
If some kind hearted jobless people can understand my "peelings"...plz do comment...
